About Me

I am an insane human being. I have been a wife for 15 plus years, and a mom for almost as long. I had 3 children early on...then struggled with life and IF and loss for 8 years. Thought our family was complete, so I compensated by adopting all the shelter pets. Then we were surprised that our luck changed. Our running total is Parents: 2, Kids: 5, Pets:4. My life is far from perfect, and much of our happiness was hard fought and won, from the death of a parent, job loss and marriage troubles, miscarriage and IF, we have been through it all, and dare I say we made it, with a lot of love and laughter, and not taking ourselves too seriously.

Monday, November 9, 2015

HE's Here!!

Bonus Baby Boy is one week old already! Everything regarding his delivery and hospital stay was completely flawless. He's perfect and thriving, breast feeding is going smoothly, although he started out as a lazy nurser and I worked hard in the hospital to make sure we came home with no feeding issues, and he is proving to be a pretty chill and easy baby so far. I feel so beyond lucky. There is so much I want to say but I really have no brain power to write a post that does any of this justice.

Transitioning home after 4.5 days away has been a challenge. Toddler Baby Boy had a super hard time with my absence, as he had grandmothers caring for him and it's just not the same. So I have some mommy guilt going on. The first day home was really hard on my heart, but it's getting better. Today is the first day it's just me and the little guys, and it is nice to get back to some semblance of normal. It is definitely helping toddler baby boy, for sure, to realize mommy is back and everything is ok in his little world. He is very unsure of the baby and cries when baby cries as if it scares him. I am not pushing and letting him slowly warm up to him. He is just old enough at 21 months to make this a harder transition then when I had a 15 month old and a new baby a decade ago.

So we are all adjusting. Physically I am doing ok but I am pushing myself, but I really have no choice. I haven't had anything stronger than Motrin since I left the hospital. Not that I couldn't use it, but I can't afford to be doped up, either. I go for my post-op visit later today and I am sure I will hear about it from my doctor but he also knows me well enough to expect this.

Then there is that whole business of "are we done" having kids people have been asking me for months. After going through 8 years of IF, I am not so inclined to want to prevent anything and to rather let nature take its course. I still feel like I have it in me to have another child, as crazy as that may seem. I know how blessed and lucky I am. And I don't take for granted the fact that I got to do this as many times as I have, despite not being able to for so many years in between. I prayed on it before, and I will continue to pray and let God lead me. There was a reason He made me wait 8 years. I am going to continue to trust in Him.

On another note, I can't wait for my hormones to regulate some. I alternate between freezing cold and breaking out sweating all day long, and all night, too. Right now I am ice cold but my house is holding steady at 70 degrees.

7 comments:

  1. Congratulations congratulations congratulations! Glad he is here, and that everyone is home and well.

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  2. Many congratulations!
    Hormones...ugh. :)

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  3. Congrats! I was wondering if you had bonus baby, since you were absent. Speaking of, does he have a name? I'm so used to it just being the 3 of us, I totally can't relate, but after DH's hip replacements we had to deal with an ornery toddler who got off his schedule. It was the pits!

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  4. Congratulations and best wishes on the arrival of bonus baby! I hope that Toddler Baby comes around quickly and dotes on the new sibling. :)

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  5. Congratulations! Sounds so cute and wonderful :)

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  6. Oh, congratulations! How exciting. So many transitions, so much adjustment... it sounds like you are doing great even if your doctor will be mad at you. :) I can understand not wanting to be doped up with so much to look after between Toddler Baby and Bonus Baby! Best wishes to you and your family.

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  7. ZOMG, congrats! I have been MIA for so long but have thought about you and wondered how you were doing. I am so so so happy for you!

    Would love to know how you cured the lazy nurser, as mine went from being lazy to refusing to latch. It's been heartbreaking.

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